I Am My Mother

Glue – 2:24
Human Kind – 5:15
One and One Equals Four– 5:49
Transience – 6:39
Make the Seasons Change– 4:25
Affection – 5:15
I Am My Mother – 3:09

Released February 25, 2022

All songs composed and written by Janine Cathrein
All songs produced by Black Sea Dahu / Janine Cathrein, Vera Cathrein, Simon Cathrein, Ramon Ziegler, Nick Furrer, Pascal Eugster, Paul Märki

All songs mixed by Gavin Gardiner and Janine Cathrein except Glue mixed by Paul Märki
All songs mastered by Phil Demetro except Glue mastered by Gavin Gardiner

Engineering by Roger Müller, Tillmann Ostendarp and Paul Märki

Illustration by Lina Müller
Photos by Vera Cathrein and Paul Märki
Graphic Design by Badesaison

Copyright Black Sea Dahu / All rights reserved.

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Glue

My grandmother, she forgot all about her past
History repeats itself and she has a blast
Eating cake and watching the snow fall
The sky fall
Just like when she was young

Now her thoughts are glue

And human race forgot all about the past
History repeats itself
While we wipe out elephants to the last
Do you really know if the world still exists when you die
It’s a conception of your brain

Our thoughts are glue
Let’s start anew
Her thoughts are glue
So let’s start anew

Human Kind

I dream of you in colors that don’t exist
Travel to the other side, meet you there, leave me blind
I look so goddamn tired
Even in my sleep
Don’t you die on me now baby
I am you are me
I need you for my sanity
Oh how you occupy my mind sometimes
Soak up a life
Be human kind

We are the grown breed of extinction century
An apex predator facing mass solitude
Thriving child of consumption industry
I woke to swollen eyes adrift in the depth of my dream
Tremor in the stream
Now I’ve lost all sense of direction
Don’t you give up on me now baby
I am you are me
I need you for my sanity
And in the end you are the ties you made
A devil’s trade
Be human kind

Every third day I’m caught in the eye of a storm
I run a fever and sweat out all the pain
Reset my brain back to the norm

Every third day I’m caught in the eye of a storm
I run a fever and try minding my own
Reset my brain back to the norm

Thunder over you no matter what you do
But don’t despair cause I’m in there with you

One and One Equals Four

There’s an ocean between you and me that can’t be overcome
Put all the feelings back to where they came from
Then take me away from here
Ooooh

Here we are again and I’m trying to explain what it means
To be free of our present tense society
Won’t you tell me what’s on your mind
Oh I need more
One and one equals four

How come this is proof of sticking to my beliefs
I think I need to run away on tour overseas
Do you still care what we were before?
Let’s get on a train and leave
Don’t let go of me

These days the wind blows colder from the sea
You’re out of touch and it scares the life out of me
It crawls up my spine, spreads out all over the back of my head
You said: I am just another chore for you to get done

Oh it tears me up to see you on stage
I keep my heart shut when I stand in the crowd
Now all I do is sit around in hallways with my head against the wall
Oh I’m so tired
The words are dripping down the walls and I slide down the door
Oh you really fucked me up

How come this is proof of sticking to my beliefs
I think I need to run away on tour overseas
Do you still care what we were before
Let’s get on a train and leave
Don’t let go of me

I’m drowning in work don’t you know
Trying to keep my head above the water
Tomorrow I will reap if you’d only help me sow
I’m barren and worn-out to the bone
Push me a little harder love and I’ll sink like a stone

Transience

Istanbul today
You said on the phone
But I am barely awake
You’ve been away for too long
My love I’ve gone strange
White birds falling down from the sky
Into the riverbed filled with ink
It swallowed up all light
And I will be snowed in as of tonight
I haven’t been outside for days

If they’re looking to be entertained
I wonder who they came for
Now everything I have left is on this stage
We load the car and drive off to any goddamn place
Last night in my sleep I climbed out the window
Saw a red tree glowing, floating in the air
I keep the thought of you a flame

How will I survive in this world gone mad?
There’s no way now to find you, to find you
No human touch can bring me there
Now music takes me places oh just like you, just like you

How will I survive in this world gone mad?
There’s no way now to find you, to find you
No human touch can bring me there
Now music takes me places oh just like you, just like you

How will I survive in this world gone mad?
There’s no way I can find you, find you
No human torch can bring me where music takes me
places oh just like you, just like you

Make the Seasons Change

You need to get your story straight
All of your magic no longer works on me
You have no power over me

You’re the king of wicked deeds
Oh such a sweet sweet trap between the sheets
You’re consuming all my sympathy and this is the mess of your making
You've made your bed
Now lie in it

Don’t try me now
I’m so out of sorts
I am wearing thin
So self-hating that I’d let myself fall for someone who treats me like this

Your black eyes
They are an open soul for me to read
I can see you suffer and succeed
I’m another stranger to mislead

I can’t forgive his ignorance
Oh this will be my lesson to learn
He was the worst liar of all time
Thought he’d make the seasons change

Sleep deprivation has got me developing compulsions
Call it a change of nature
I think I’ll lose my mind

Oh what you do is not opening up
It’s just unloading shit
Like drowning people grab their rescuer all terrified
You’re pulling me down with you
Into the deep

Affection

I turned myself inside out
You don’t even know
I put on the warpaint and calm the winds of your trauma closing in
Where do you end and where do you begin?
I laid my broken heart in your hands

I spend my time wandering in the fog
trying to shake the thought
Oh everyone’s out to get you
Tread so hard to push me away
I’m reading into every word you say
I’m lost in your eyes
Come lay your broken hands between my thighs

Shiny sunday symmetries
They’re cracking my composure
Oh these wild roots wound around my knees make me fall over
Look around
Snow, rain without a sound
Are you falling out of love?
Give all my affection and nothing stays
Oh if I could I’d help you wake up back in the womb

Come take me out and let me hold your fear as you do mine
But it feels like all the time I am misreading the clouds, oooh

Come take me out and bring me anywhere but here and now
I’ve grown so used to everything going wrong
Don’t let me down
I know that I’m flawed for I find home in every broken one I pass

I Am My Mother

I am my mother
I lay worried through the night
Always willing it to rain
Her demons are mine to fight

I am my father
I never say when I’m in pain
How could I know what you contain
We’re so stuck in our ways

I am my sister
Nine times out of ten I get it wrong
By her side I do belong
We’re bound, never to part

Ladadadadada

I am my brother
Hide away for me to find
Not an idle bone in that mind of yours
Mystery to me

Ladadadadada

I am my lover
I weigh half when he is gone
Need him more than I let on
We’re all caught up inside
I weigh half when he is gone

Ladadadadada